The Christiana Epistle

 My heart is full of gratitude to the one who made me and called me his own🙏🙏🙏

One day, I was talking to God about my feelings… and my “spec.” I was very specific. I literally explained to Him why I wouldn’t even consider certain kinds of guys, and why some others could attract me without saying a single word. I treated it like one of my little secrets with God. Somehow, that conversation became a rule I lived by. So in my head, any guy who didn’t meet that standard wasn’t worth my time or so I thought. And honestly, it’s very easy to be drawn to what looks good, what glitters, what feels impressive on the surface. Meanwhile, the deeper part the real reason God even created a man to walk with a woman gets ignored or pushed aside. I’ve always tried to stay balanced. I don’t like extremes. I try not to live on either end of the spectrum. But Lord… this is hard to write. Topics like this are sensitive. Help me, Lord. 🙏🏽 Let me say this clearly first: God is a big part of this area of my life. Every crush I’ve had. Every feeling I’ve felt. Every conversation with t...

 Reflection: Tongues, the Spirit, and God’s Timing I’ve been thinking a lot about speaking in tongues lately. You know, in some Christian gatherings, people say things like, “You must speak in tongues immediately when you receive the Holy Spirit.” I used to feel so pressured by that. I even wondered if not speaking in tongues meant I was missing out on something essential. But then I remember my own experience. I was in Junior Secondary School, at a Girls' Auxiliary camp program, if you are a Baptist reading this, then I am sure you know what G.A is. We were praying, really hungry for God, hearts wide open. And then…it happened. I started speaking in tongues. I didn’t plan it. I didn’t try to make it happen. It just came. That moment taught me something so simple, yet so profound: the Spirit moves, and we just respond. Since then, I’ve seen people receive tongues in all kinds of ways. Some get it immediately, some months or years later, and some never do and that’s okay. Tongues is...

 God, in His faithfulness and kindness, gave us Himself His whole self and made Him accessible through Jesus Christ. I’ve noticed that the only way I function well is when I’m close to Him. Not that I am perfect, but closeness makes me more sensitive, humble, and teachable. It helps me forgive, be forgiven, and be led or to lead wisely. Being with God feels whole and complete. But what happens if I try to run from Him? I won’t lie sometimes even in His presence, life hurts. Sometimes I question why God allows certain things to happen and why He doesn’t intervene immediately. My mind begins to think: maybe I should step away, even disapprove of what God allows, and seek relief apart from Him. The story of Jonah gives the perfect analogy. Jonah ran because God asked him to do something uncomfortable. He thought freedom lay in running. But what he found was the opposite: running from God only brought emptiness. I’ve seen the same in my own life when I try to escape the uncomfortable m...

 As a young girl growing to find her path in this world, one of the things that has caught my attention always is the relationship with the opposite sex. It has been quite a journey, a journey of strength, weakness, pains, dreams, fantasies and protection from God. You know how painful it is to see your peers be in romantic relationships and somehow you just know that this is not for you now, even when you desire it so much. One lesson I have learnt from God is that our desires most times can destroy us and that is why it is best we are led by the spirit of God who will not always go in the direction of your desires.  Growing, I desired to be loved by the opposite sex. Every child has felt this at some point in their journey. God intentionally put the desire to be loved in man to serve a purpose that only him can satisfy. Now let me break it down. Using my story as an example  I wasn't opportune to have a complete family. My parents were never married but they had myself ...

  The Beautiful Struggle of Faith By Christiana Olamide In a world where everyone wants the best for themselves, no one wants to be left behind when it feels like others are getting ahead. Everyone desires to be associated with the best because, somehow, it’s tied to our self-esteem. Man is mostly driven by sight, because in the natural world, sight gives assurance of things to come. “As long as I’ve seen it happen, then it will definitely happen.” Yet, man does not naturally understand what it means to believe when it doesn’t look like it. We tend to be logical in everything we do — and while logic can be helpful, sometimes it makes faith look senseless, especially when it concerns the things of God. Faith Was Never Logical The life of faith, from the standpoint of salvation, was never logical. We can’t explain how possible it is to be born of the Spirit in a logical form. We can’t describe how possible it is to be given the nature of God at salvation. Yet, we believe that we have...

 Dear God, I have seen how beautiful it is to be called yours, I have seen how lovely it is to be associated with you. Each time I am swept off my feet by your unending unconditional love. Words are not enough to describe the beauty of the love we share. Sometimes I ask myself, is this not too much to receive?, but then, I realise that there's the need for me to enlarge my soul to receive your immeasurable love. I was once blind, but now I see, I was once dead but now I am alive because of you, I once lived in darkness but now am I given access to light through you.  I know what it means to be blind, I know the struggle it takes to be blind because I have experienced it. I know what it means to live in darkness and how painful and self-destructive it is, because I was once there. Choosing to be called by you was a choice I made, I know and I believe that it is a wise decision to be one with you even when the world have normalised it as foolishness and archaic. But their perspe...